THE PUSH

EVERY ONCE AND A WHILE YOU TRY TO FIND A WAY TO CATCH A BREAK....I'M NOT SURE THEY EXIST. WHEN YOU GO TO SLEEP YOU'RE BRAINSTORMING. WHEN YOU WAKE UP YOU SEE PEOPLE MOVING. I REMEMBER BEING YOUNGER AND BEING CAUGHT UP IN THE SUMMER. YOU'D BE IN AUGUST AND THINK IT WAS JULY BECAUSE THE DATE NEVER MATTERED. I WOULD KILL FOR ONE OF THOSE MOMENTS. BUT FOR EVERY MOMENT I WANT TO DO NOTHING...I DAYDREAM ABOUT DOING EVERYTHING. SO RATHER THAN STAYING IN LIMBO (BETWEEN DOING NOTHING AND EVERYTHING POSSIBLE) I GET THE OCCASIONAL PUSH THAT IS INCREDIBLY NECESSARY. I CANNOT SAY THAT IVE NEVER WANTED ANYTHING SO BAD. FOR AS LONG AS I CAN REMEMBER, IVE WANTED TO GET TO THAT NEXT POINT. SO, ONE WEEK AFTER GRADUATION, I WILL GO BACK TO SLEEPLESS NIGHTS. THREE TO FOUR HOURS OF SLEEP A NIGHT IS ENOUGH. THIS HAS TO BE THE BEST GIFT AND CURSE IN THE WORLD.