Some make a Deal with the Devil

I dont know if you've ever heard of this. maybe its how i was raised in this almost superstitious world (although the word superstitious puts this idea of it being a myth.) but what could be worst then making a deal with yourself. I mean, you know that you haven't followed through and the worst person to inflict guilt on anyone is you. Yourself.....like, if i dont get Wang's office im gonna flip some crazy shit. Or, if i dont become as big as Google, then i will really be angry. Like, pressure is what you get from making this deal and this fear of doom. You never create the entire picture of what your fall would be like if you didnt go through with the deal but you realize that it has to do with mediocrity. Yeh, mediocrity. That, of all things can never happen. Ive seen the carpool moms, the midlife crises and i wasnt made for it. Its like you just know. So I guess there is no middle ground, (haha) greatness or mediocrity....Some make deals with the devil but ive made a deal with myself.